How are you all today? Hawa hopes you all are fine. Hari ini Hawa nak cerita apa ya? Hmmmm... So I introduce myself first lah.
FYI, Hawa currently studying kat sebuah universiti teknologi di sebuah negara Asia Tenggara. In short, Hawa baru je in first year... so yeah. Actually the real reason Hawa created this blog was Hawa nak share stories dengan whoever you are out there. Because there's something I can't tell anyone I know which includes my own friend. :(
Do you ever heard of this?
"To have a guy best friend is fun and less drama. But the only thing that will ruin your friendship when one of you starts to fall in love with the other..."
So that's more or less what happened to me. I don't know sejak bila this thing started but each day, Hawa rasa semakin lemas dengan keadaan. I wonder if he knew? I wish he didn't. Hawa tak pernah ada teman lelaki, yes it's true and Hawa tak suka luahkan perasaan Hawa to a guy, if I ever like someone. Never. And I don't like to tell my girlfriends, you know, I don't trust them. Hmmmmmmm... susahlah. I'd been betrayed several times by my own best friends. Quite enough for me to learn a lesson though.
So begini ceritanya, let's call this guy Adam... :) He was best friend until everything started to crumble. I don't know since when Hawa ada this mushy-mushy feeling at him. Hawa kerap kali beritahu kat diri Hawa he's my best friend but entahlah... I can't even talk to him properly like I used to. Sedih memang sedih dengan keadaan ini... Hawa respect dia sebagai seorang kawan baik. Mungkin salah Hawa this happened?
Both of us semakin jauh and we are not like we used to. Sometimes I wonder if he realised this situation? Or maybe he just thought Hawa dah semakin sombong??? If he thought of the latter, Hawa memang sedih sangat lah if begitu.
Right now Hawa and Adam have same class at universiti ni... somethimes Adam duduk dekat Hawa, but I can't even start a normal conversation with him. Embarrassing!
Anyway, gtg. I'll post something again in the near future!
xx
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